I don’t know where to start

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Whoever wants to get out of prison will have to work hard. This is not free, it is earned. We all deserve it, it is available to anyone, but you have to take action. No one is going to come and do our work or rescue us without us lifting a finger. This is the vision of immature and banal people, it is not the vision of a conscious person. Given this, a big question arises: where do I start?

The answer is simple: start whit what you have in sight, what’s most at hand.

1. Search within yourself what bothers you the most about your environment.

Humans, especially in the West, are taught that reality is determined by a combination of circumstances to which we must adapt. Our actions may influence some of them, but in the general structure we have no influence. You adapt to the world or you stay outside.

This limited and distorted vision is the source of most of humanity’s problems, since the truth is that humans are co-creators of our reality. The dark has a deep understanding of it, so it designed the right mechanisms to force us to create the reality that suits its interests.

If you look around you, you will find a series of situations, circumstances and people that upset or hurt you. In general, humans try to positively influence them to modify them and adapt them to what we consider fair, correct, adequate, ethical, and so on. That is, we try to modify the external reality based on our expectations. That is not only wildly narcissistic, but unobjective and unrealistic. The world is as it is. And just as you are not obliged to adapt to what you do not want, no one is obliged to be what you like, suit you or accommodate you.

Projection is one of the defense mechanisms of the human mind best known, but less attended. Basically it consists of perceiving in others, behaviors or attitudes that we are not capable of perceiving in ourselves, or that we deny of our personality. For example: the jealous type of person who does not trust the fidelity of her partner is actually unfaithful or would love to be, but represses  it because he is ashamed to want it. The person who systematically complains about the terrible harm that other people do to him and does not perceive that he is a source of pain for others. Whoever harshly judges the dependency relationships of others, but does not perceive that he is linked in the same way as those he criticizes, and if he does perceive it, he justifies it in a thousand ways.

This also applies in the social or the collective: people who complain about injustice, perhaps have a history full of it, either committing injustice or being victims of it, but until now they repress, deny, minimize or justify it. Or those who claim to combat the abuse of power and discrimination against a particular social group, but do so in a violent way and discriminate against anyone who disagrees with their ideas or behavior.

A good way to start working internally is to become aware of those wounds that must be healed, of the situations that must be resolved, of the past that must be redefined and let go, of the pain and suffering that must be transcended. There is no better tool to bring this into consciousness than to use your environment as a mirror: what you reject most from other people or from your environment lives within you. Most likely you replicate what hurts you so much and you don’t even notice.

Realizing this causes shame and guilt, among other low-vibration emotions. But they must not be allowed to do more damage than necessary. Feeling guilty is necessary to commit yourself to change, even if it is to not feel this bad again. But beyond that, it becomes a poison that deeply damages the concept of oneself and conditions behavior in a negative way.

It is absolutely natural that the human mind takes part of the characteristics of the personality of its aggressor to defend itself against him. This happens during childhood, when you don’t have many resources to deal with adversity. Thus, literally a part of your aggressor (or aggressors) lives in you. This part of your personality manifests itself by hurting you and others in the same way that they did to you. That is the seed of darkness that they planted in you and that you now call “me”. But it’s not you! That is a false part of your personality, the dark part that you must discover and transcend to be yourself. In short, it’s about stopping identifying with the darkness in yourself and exorcising it once and for all.

2. Listen to your body.

The human body and its homeostasis are closely linked to the emotional and energetic world. Any stimulus from these two fields has a very specific impact on your physical body. Because of this, all your illnesses, pains or ailments, both chronic and sporadic, are closely related to an emotional or energetic factor.

This is how the body becomes a map that can guide you to discover a whole compendium of repressed emotions, conflicts, unresolved issues, traumas and all kinds of situations from the present and the past, which must be identified, worked on, transcended and released.

To know the emotional meaning of physical ailments, pains and diseases in general, you need to rely on a dictionary that provides you with a guide. I recommend you to search online for one that you find reliable. Do not take it as a bible, but as a tool to support your introspection process. Of course the road is long, but this is enough to take the first steps. Along the way you will find more trails to walk. Do it with perseverance and discipline. Remember what is at stake. All the time and effort that you dedicate to your inner work will be amply rewarded when you reach the goal of getting out of here.